I forgot how aggravating Blanche can be, all she does it complain either about the apartment or how hot it is. Now she's complaining about Stanley, I know he has an anger problem but he has always been this way. And, I understand he shouldn't be angry all the time but I love Stanley with all my heart and he makes me happy. And, secretly I believe the anger Stanley has and lashes out, really intrigues me. I don't know why but its so exciting and passionate between us. We have something that Blanche will never understand. Maybe Blanche is jealous, jealous of my happiness and the place I am at in my life. I wish she would actually be happy for me and accept Stanley, I can see she's slowly starting trouble and making Stanley out to be the bad guy. I couldn't believe her trying to make an escape plan to get away from Stanley. To be honest, I'm so tired of her antics I can't sit here and help her all hours of the day. One thing I know is that her lies are soon going to catch up with her, especially with her friend Shep. Blanche needs to realize she not as young as she tells everyone, oh and her lying about her age is ridiculous. I feel as if she has lived a double life and now that she is out of her environment, its getting hard for her to cope. I know if I didn't write this out I think I would continue to bottle it all up like use to when we were younger, maybe that has something to with my leaving... hmmm if Blanche ever knew that she probably call me selfish and blame me for all her troubles. I had to leave though, I just had to but sometimes I do wonder what would have happen if I had stayed?
